I talk of things being circular. What goes around comes around, again and then again. Even when you finish the book you start again. It's pretty much the same thing. The situations are familiar but you take something with you from your last read. Insight. Foreknowlege. Knowing the end helps you to reflect on the path. The journey. The hidden themes jump out at you. The fifth time your read page five is fresh. The best books are like that. Each time you read them is new even while being the same. It's still circles. Cyclonic.
This is the end. The end of this story. The end of this cycle.
Sunday, March 16, 2003
Sunday, March 09, 2003
On a bike
Saturday it got a little warm so I went outside and rode my bicycle around the block a few times. By evening the mercury dropped low enough for me to start shivering again. I hope it gets warm again and stays that way. I cycle-commuted to work last summer but quit in the late fall when it started getting colder and darker. Now increasing gas prices and waist size have got me dying to start up again.
Caution: Soap Box! Everybody at work always ridicules me for riding my bike to work. They tell me I'm crazy for riding on the road and that I'm going to get arrested or killed. I had to pull out the Illinois regulations one day and show them that I had a right to ride on the pavement. I pity the people that are hardcore into saving the environment at seeing what they have to go up against. I'm not doing much, yet the opposition that I get for doing something simple liking keeping the car parked a few months out of the year is incredible. How dare you forsake your privledge to drive a car! Then you have these types that like to blow their horns at you and point at the sidewalk or the pedestrian crossing when I'm sitting in an intersection and they're behind me. Do they even realise that pedestrian means "foot" traffic? Do they realise how unsafe it is for cyclist to ride on sidewalks? Then there are the idiots who laugh because you're wearing a helmet. OK, I know that a cycling helmet is not the most fashionable thing in the world -- but, come on. I know that they are young and invicible (I was there once) but in my autumn late-twenties I don't particularly want to die.
I guess it goes back to being a kid and looking forward to when you're adult enough to get that license. Once you hit sixteen you would be crazy to go back. If you had a license and a car then that was status! I guess that attitude gets lodged in our brains somehow and it becomes hard to shake. So forever in the collective midwest mind the only people that cycle to go somewhere are kids, poor people, and drunks with revoked licenses. Adults should never ever cycle unless it's purely for recreation. Anything else is simply unbecoming. If only I lived in Singapore!
Caution: Soap Box! Everybody at work always ridicules me for riding my bike to work. They tell me I'm crazy for riding on the road and that I'm going to get arrested or killed. I had to pull out the Illinois regulations one day and show them that I had a right to ride on the pavement. I pity the people that are hardcore into saving the environment at seeing what they have to go up against. I'm not doing much, yet the opposition that I get for doing something simple liking keeping the car parked a few months out of the year is incredible. How dare you forsake your privledge to drive a car! Then you have these types that like to blow their horns at you and point at the sidewalk or the pedestrian crossing when I'm sitting in an intersection and they're behind me. Do they even realise that pedestrian means "foot" traffic? Do they realise how unsafe it is for cyclist to ride on sidewalks? Then there are the idiots who laugh because you're wearing a helmet. OK, I know that a cycling helmet is not the most fashionable thing in the world -- but, come on. I know that they are young and invicible (I was there once) but in my autumn late-twenties I don't particularly want to die.
I guess it goes back to being a kid and looking forward to when you're adult enough to get that license. Once you hit sixteen you would be crazy to go back. If you had a license and a car then that was status! I guess that attitude gets lodged in our brains somehow and it becomes hard to shake. So forever in the collective midwest mind the only people that cycle to go somewhere are kids, poor people, and drunks with revoked licenses. Adults should never ever cycle unless it's purely for recreation. Anything else is simply unbecoming. If only I lived in Singapore!
Saturday, March 08, 2003
Playing Music
Today I'm going to play music with some people I know. I'm anxious to play. Ever since me and my sister moved seperate ways I've been missing it. When we were kids we would play music practically everyday. It was so much fun. I'm hoping that playing with these guys isn't going to feel empty or betrayal.
Music isn't one of my strengths at all but it's something that I want to be able to do. I've got heart but not ability. I hope no one notices.
Music isn't one of my strengths at all but it's something that I want to be able to do. I've got heart but not ability. I hope no one notices.
Friday, March 07, 2003
... and it's so cold
Everything is circular for me. There is no final end point. I leave point "A" and reach point "B" and then before I know it I'm looking at point "A" again. I want a linear life filled with natural progression. A steady incline would be nice. I want G.O. without the accompanying G.I. I want to purge without binging. I want sleep without waking.
...and it's so cold.
...and it's so cold.
Thursday, March 06, 2003
Wednesday, March 05, 2003
Selling Junk & Buying Toys
When I was young I always used to fantasize about being able to sell all my toys that I didn't play with anymore so that I could buy new ones with the money.
Me and some neighbourhood kids even had a toy yard sale. We didn't sell anything and ended up trading all of our stuff with each other at the end of the day.
eBay and Amazon's marketplace has finally ended up making this possible for me. I'm looking around my house and selling useless junk and buying new toys!
Me and some neighbourhood kids even had a toy yard sale. We didn't sell anything and ended up trading all of our stuff with each other at the end of the day.
eBay and Amazon's marketplace has finally ended up making this possible for me. I'm looking around my house and selling useless junk and buying new toys!
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